I can’t speak my mind.
I like him but i can’t understand his feelings.
I don’t want to destroy what we have now but i don’t think he values it.
Every time i try to be honest, I put a fraud and gulp everything;
trying to be friendly;
trying not to scare him;
trying to understand him;
trying to be a buddy he can trust.
of ruining the moment.
of ruining our past.
to face his feelings.
of leaving him.
I’m facing him again, asking about nonsense.
He’s not comfortable, so I’ll just pretend I am
and try to convince myself he doesn’t know..