Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
I have. And that’s something that makes me me. I cannot change how I feel and honestly I don’t want to. I might lose myself sometimes over my feelings, put them on a pedestal and treat them with the care I believe they deserve. However, this is something I never asked in return.
Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
Waking up in the middle of the night to check up on them, worrying they might not get enough rest. Tomorrow they have a tiring day… I want to wake up early and make breakfast for them. But the coffee is not to their taste… they are not in the mood for eggs and they don’t want that cake I made for them yesterday… it’s too sweet. However, I smile and wish them good luck at work.
Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
Putting sunscreen on them before you do to yourself, not because you treat them like a child, but because you care they won’t get sunburned. However, it doesn’t matter if you get sunburned in the process.
Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
Trying to fit into their little boxes and act in ways that would not upset them, or worry them. Keeping things to yourself because you don’t want them to know you’re depressed… you have family problems… You don’t want to look pathetic in their eyes. You want to shine, brighter than the stars. Because that’s how they look to you. Like the sun.
Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
Wanting them to open up and tell you how they really feel… their troubles and their worries. Their happy thoughts and the silly thoughts. The little in between. Talk about the future and the past totally immersed in the moment… totally immersed in each other… However, whenever you start such a conversation they tell you it’s boring… they hate these subjects.
Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
That despite not meeting your every need they hold your heart. The happy moments are little diamonds in your life so not meeting your every need is not fundamental anymore… and you compromise… and you compromise… and your shine fades away… and like a star that dies in the universe your light disappears one dark night… and no one knows… no one knows because you continue smiling. Wishing that your light was given to your Sun making them even brighter…
Have you ever loved someone more than yourself?
Maybe you haven’t, but when you do I hope you find a Sun worthy of your light, as I did.